11.20.21
Had another bizarre ass nightmare last night... I don't know what it means, but basically I dreamt that Taf and I were in separate air crafts. I was in a helicopter and he was in a plane. Alongside separated groups of my coworkers for some reason? I think we were doing something in prepping for our wedding... They both crashed. I made it out, the helicopter was closer to the ground and smaller when it exploded??? so we made it... I looked up wondering if Taf was okay--didn't even think of the coworkers he was with but that's when his plane exploded and I saw the words "no survivors" I threw myself on the floor and screamed, and all I could think is "what am I going to do without him?" "He is everything. He was the only plan I had." "This was supposed to be endgame." Shit like that, didn't care that my coworkers were still around me. Just screaming... So, later, in my grief I BEGGED his best friend to try something for me--and th...
