6.15.21
Haaa...not having your identity respected really fucking hurts. I don't know how anyone can say they care about me in the slightest but deny my pronouns in the same breath.... At least when I dont tell people, they aren't blatantly refusing; I can pretend that they'd bother if they knew...I can lie to myself :,) And it's a very sweet lie... Too sweet. I'm back in a place where I can't stop thinking about dying...I'm back in that awful place. I was made privy to someone I liked apparently scoffing at my identity as well...I'm in so much pain. I dont play pain Olympics but everyone is always assuming that it's it's competition. I just want my fucking existence respected, or you can fuck up out of my goddamn life forever. I don't need fucking parasitic body weights holding me the fuck down. I'm tired. I have to go to the gym today. I'm gonna do chest, bc its short and I'm not feeling super pumped and I skipped lunch... I just don'
