KatzyKins Cries

     Trying to be a bit more consistent with these posts; but I'll probably fall off them again soon.  I just have a lot to bitch about I guess.      Family is always kind of exhausting to think about it--mostly my step dad. And the shock of how he is to everyone who didn't grow up with him and his shit.  Like, "Yeah I know. He sucks and he always has."  I don't know what to tell you. But my "childhood" (if you wanna call it one lol) stories should've been prep.  On facebook, my feeds are flooded by this artist who apparently can't or just doesn't get a therapist--it's draining as fuck, and on top of the fact that they complain about shit that makes *no* sense to anyone on the outside, (like being unhappy with their art which is the sole reason I keep 'em on my friends list to begin with because their mental health shit is dISMAL and it's bringing me down, but if I unfollow I'll miss their art posts.)  On top of being just *mi...

Had another bizarre ass nightmare last night... I don't know what it means, but basically I dreamt that Taf and I were in separate air crafts. I was in a helicopter and he was in a plane. Alongside separated groups of my coworkers for some reason? I think we were doing something in prepping for our wedding... They both crashed. I made it out, the helicopter was closer to the ground and smaller when it exploded??? so we made it... I looked up wondering if Taf was okay--didn't even think of the coworkers he was with but that's when his plane exploded and I saw the words "no survivors" I threw myself on the floor and screamed, and all I could think is "what am I going to do without him?"  "He is everything. He was the only plan I had." "This was supposed to be endgame." Shit like that, didn't care that my coworkers were still around me. Just screaming...  So, later, in my grief I BEGGED his best friend to try something for me--and th...

So my coworker has a crush on me. Hes married and he knows I'm engaged x3x  But it's becoming obvious he thinks he can take this somewhere but he can't. See, when I say I don't want kids, my fiance says "neither do I." But my coworker said that "maybe something will change my mind." Dudes who respect consent are top tier 😤  And I didn't get engaged to by being a flakey bitch. I def don't mind friendship, but I hope he doesn't mind it either >n> bc I don't do my partners like that.  I've been fiercely faithful since I was a kid o3o I remember being told by a serial cheater that loyalty was different from fidelity and I was like "oh no it is not." You can't be loyal to someone while you betray them. That isn't loyalty. Today I got into an accident. A minor fender bender. And I hit my head and my knee. I was shaking and forgot what my ins provider was. Eventually I figured it out and the guy called his ins co...