4.20.25

 Blaaaaaze it~ 

It's 4/20 I had to. 

Anyway, I started my antipsychotics about 5 or 6 days ago and it's been...bliss. 
My inner monologue has completely shut up <3 
I still hear my deities and now they're so clear because it's 

QUIET in my brain. 

I don't become so devastated over any old crit anymore, and I don't get super angry during fights. I experienced a few side effects at first but most are completely gone 

And I'm so fucking happy <3 I can heal and be normal <3 

I'm seeing my therapist tomorrow and I'm super hype to tell her! <3 

Thanks for reading, friends <3 

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