3.12.26

I'm just not gonna tell anyone the truth anymore. Every single person who claims they want honesty from a friend is a fat fucking liar. I've yet to meet a single person who truly appreciates honesty from anyone. 

I'm just supposed to shut up and let my friends ruin their lives. Okay fine.

I'm not saying this shit for my health. Your the one who's throwing your life away on a grown ass toddler. 

And if he fucks up and doesn't toe the line with me, you'll be hearing about the next time he does something shitty or stupid.

I can't wait for all this to end in another divorce. Because apparently you'd rather go through another legal process than just admit you rushed this shit with a dude who never seems to make any fucking progress with anything. 

I never hear anything good about this schlub and you wanna MARRY him? Okay. Braindead idiot ass. 

And that's on God what I wanted to fire back with when you shut me down on everything. 

Have fun with the cluster fuck you're turning your life into. I hope I'm vindicated soon. It sucks being the one none of you bitches wanna believe. 

But when the fUCK have I been wrong about ANYTHING?

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